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人来人往。

我今天 认识你了， 明天我还会 记得你吗？
在我身边 的事物太多，
我忽略了什么？
我自己 有时候 根本 也不清楚自己 在做什么，
我可以拥有很多朋友，可是我放弃的朋友 也不少
我不觉得我是个难亲近的人， 爱说笑 爱耍宝 爱闹着玩
只是 我真的 有时候 会很糊涂。
刚开始 不觉得 我的糊涂 有什么影响， 日子久了， 就开始嫌弃

所以 再怎样改变 自己 也都是浪费的，
今天我为什么 会这样写， 我也不知道 就忽然感觉到
朋友来 朋友去
可我却 重来， 至少 是我活到现在没有
遇到 一个可以让我完全信任 和 把我的心事分享的朋友。

选择朋友 不容易，
随便 交朋友 却是很容易 的一件事。

自以为很了解我的人， 往往却是最不知道我心里在想什么的人。
因为你不是我，所以你当然不知道咯。

如果 我的朋友说， 你不是有上帝吗？（这是满讽刺的一句话）
我是有上帝， 上帝可以陪我聊天 这是当然的， 我们都应该跟上帝亲近

可是我也是人， 我也需要 一个 是 ‘人’ 的朋友。
而且 在神的国度里 没有 一个人是独行侠的

因为我们都要互相鼓励 互相扶持。

我需要一个正常的朋友是 理所当然
可是有谁 是我的那一个知我心的朋友呢？

我很期待， 因为 我想要一个知心朋友

Susan Boyle 真的很棒。

今天若不是我表姐开 Susan Boyle 的 short video 那首　ｉ　ｄｒｅａｍｅｄ　ａ　ｄｒｅａｍ
我根本就不会去太记得 Susan Boyle ， 只知道她很厉害， 也知道她很被上帝喜悦。
其他的就不太清楚了
表姐和我说她听了 Susan Boyle 的歌很想哭， 因为很感动！
我也不以为然　因为她是上帝的孩子阿，　所以相信上帝会透过她的声音感动很多人

可是我刚刚也听了，　她第一次上台的情景。。
那些评审很坏　，　有点看不起她的感觉　包括台下所有的人
可是当他一开口唱歌的时候，　他们都起来拍掌吔　！
好厉害哦　。。。

他第一次上台的情景
『copy 不到 embed file 不知道为什么』

有一次，　我的教会的牧师就说在主日要放这个　ｖｉｄｅｏ　给大家看。
看了以后反应当然也只有　羡慕　佩服　这样的眼神咯，　包括我在内。
过后牧师就跟我们解释关于　Ｓｕｓａｎ　Ｂｏｙｌｅ　的一点点的介绍
他说 Susan Boyle　是来自一个没有人会注意的乡村。
Susan Boyle 呢，　她是一个基督徒。
她说　她为什么会参加是因为小时候她的妈妈都很鼓励她　
说她如果有机会一定要去参加。
过后她妈妈去世了　，　她就在教会照顾老人家　，　好像做义工 (more…)

I realize

► That is not that hard to blogging everyday.
Thought I quite lazy to update my latest news.

Sometimes, i was thinking to give up my blog
and
concentrate on my collection by selling ‘Fake Eyelashes’ ONLY!!

But

Does it seems like ok? if i only prefer to do my collection?
Ans : Of course in NO lar~

Coz, thought I am belong to LAZY group,
Somehow I will take out my time to blogging about myself.
only SOMETIME

► Study is not that hard!
What we need to do is only do my : homework, notes and reads!

However, I always find no time to study. Haha

► Why you like photoshoped your photos?

Ans : Is that wrong to photoshop my pictures!
Yalar~ I know I look ugly when no edit, and almost make you faint or just run away from me when saw me.. (more…)

Hi.. all babes !!

For sometimes, totally no update since my 2010..

this post probably is my first post in 2010 ^^

shame of it.

haiz, was busy selling my fake eyelash recently..

Really kinda make me anxious, i seriously never doing online business..

But thanks God, i make it through facebook..

seriously i was never think of facebook initially, what I hope is selling through AnnHui.com/collection website lor..

Yet of course I know, my site is not so popular comparing to “FACEBOOK” la,

And I’m really quite disappointed to face the result..

Hahaha,

Miraculously, my mind was just pop out, ‘ hey i can sell my fake eyelash through facebook ba’

Hmm, and you know mar..

If no one beside me chasing me to upload photos or doing my own business, I will definitely not so into it..

Thought I got stock in hand..

SO WHAT… and WHO CARES..

HEy, erm — this is one of my testimonial.. how did God bring this business to me ^^

if you feel lazy to read it den dun stop reading from now, it is unnecessary for you to read this, if you think what I am going through is a fake.

Hahaha, back to the topic ^^

At first, seriously none of any babe HIU me,

Really cry chin ar..

Seriously I tell you,

If God wanna bless you, He will definitely bless you with ideas, business, your life and everything you ask for it, you just name it..

I believe that God really leading me, step by step…

^^

OF course God won’t give you whatever you want de la,

Coz everything have to according His plane mar..

His plan is always the best and the best for you…

If you say how come God bless me but doesn’t bless you, is because the time hasn’t come and you are still in training…

(more…)

我想我只是太在意别人怎样看我..

我现在开始慢慢发现我的朋友几乎都是教会的朋友..
以前的同学以前的朋友都无影无踪了..

我开始怀疑为什么我这么不懂得交朋友呢?

我承认之前我真的忽略了我一个朋友的感受,而”不小心”把他的秘密讲出来,
我不是到处宣扬她的事情,只是我”自己”以为我那一个朋友会帮我保守秘密所以我告诉他了,
结果现在转达到别人的耳中, 这是我没有办法否认的事实!!
我也问过那个人, 他从来也没有给我一个正确的答复..
我真的真的想知道是他说的吗?
若不是,至少我还有狡辩的理由…
谁叫我很常都笨且马虎呢??

也许从一开始我就已经看走眼,对于这个朋友..!
还是对于你这个朋友?!?
还是我个人的马虎造成我现在失去朋友?

我真的有点无奈..
看到了你们的照片,让我真的很羡慕很羡慕!
可是却看不到我在的身影, 心理就觉得有点心酸,
我的朋友多数不会看华语, 无所谓!
原本我想透过这里,我的部落格跟你道歉..
不过我想道歉我说过了,
承认我也承认过了,
生气我也生气够了..

可是我现在还是想说, 对不起!
对不起那如果需要警察来做什么?
那可能是要叫那些警察来评理.

也可能是我想太多.. 因为我只是太在意别人怎样看我.

最后的了

Recently viewed a lot on my pastor page Gtlim.com,
His site only one word I can describe

-KinTio-

Ony become a Pastor nia nia mar… edy so many people go click…or maybe
because I am not familiar…???!!

Suan Le Ba…

Our church pastor is really hardworking in this almost year end in his BLOG..
He can think out all the strategies to attract readers to go to his site,
drop comment and everything..
Well, his languages is good…
And his words u really need to read carefully..
As his words will accidentally squeeze your heart…
So you gotta becareful…
but he really make a lot of fun in his blog lar…
Current pastor is doesn’t seems so traditional pastor liaw…
Zho Zho… our young group leader become more spiritual than our pastor…
Haiz HAIZ..
I didn’t say that both of them not good oo..

jUst that both of them maybe find blogging is to make fun of people and the other one think that through blogging can glorify the Lord gua…

Eh!!! All about our church thingy ho!!

My turn my turn..

I was….
Dunno why!! Dunno what happen to myself..
Always fall asleep whatever where I go..
In class, I yawning..
Almost every class I yawning…
and somehow even fall asleep tim!….
I dunno what happen to me..
thought I think I do have enough sleep and and ..
or because I too attentive on my computer…???????
I dunno lar…
Hhaha

Went to Miri celebrate my mummy and my sister birthday…
We do give them a really big shock..
Is so phew!!
but is fun to scare them…
hahahaha..
Will posted up as soon as I get those photos…
Family trip..

I’ve made wrong decision.
I thought I would just make you laugh or smile,
although I know I’m not so good enough on my capability and languages.
I’m sorry..

I just put you into a bad situation, where people start to complain your religion and hesitate on your ministry. I know this all is important to you..
Yet I did mistakes without any realization.

You told me, what had happen actually after the night you’ve received call.
You’re just stunned when you saw what I posted up. I’m sorry for my mistake.
I’m sorry that, is my fault that put you into this kind of situation.
I’m sorry..

I listened your sharing what happen to you all these while..
I was so proud of you, that you admit your wrong and feel sorry for me, coz you think I’m not teached in this way and didn’t put any limit.
I’m sorry for my mistake,
…………..

I was reminded to update my blog..
Sorry for not update anything about myself recently..
Feel so bad recently, having a serious bad mood..
I’ve made a lot of thinking, but in the end come out with nothing..
No pictures would display, erm.. or maybe some animation or views to show how i feel LA..

Hmm,

Don’t know where to start, Hope you people understand.. I just rojak abit lor..
Think tiok what then say what…

Okay I’ll talk about the journey to Miri.

I went to Miri, in the beginning of this month..
Yeah, I did not publicize to everyone and I did not say out in my blog also..
So who knows.
Even some of my family members do not know my journey to Miri..
At that time, I was facing a serious problem, i mean my emotionally.
I start to hate someone, dislike someone… Don’t like this don’t like that
and I just feel like my life is over…
What is the point to live in this world, since that no one really care about you.
I just hate, hatred come into my life… thought I know, I shouldn’t have hatred in me, but still I did..
Then, one day.. My aunt call me up, and ask whether I’m okay to fly over Miri to company her, coz she will be alone after my the other aunt went for traveling.. My aunt probably scare to be alone, Hahahaha…
Then, I check for my schedule to confirm there is no crash in between.. After check..
Yeah!!! I told her, I’m okay.. den she book the ticket then few days later i fly over..

In between these day, I find myself so hard to breath just when home..
Everything just seems so upright and I dislike this kind of feeling.
I don’t really discover what is actually I worry / hate about, but is just a something, a feeling that makes you feel so terrible
Aiya, i also dunno how to explain here.

I packed my clothes and of course my studies course,
It sounds funny, go there enjoy still need to study merh,,
Unfortunately I would say = yeap! coz the day after my back home..
I needa face examination the next morning…
Hiak Hiak.. Thought I really repent not to repeat ’study last minute’, but I fail this time again..
Again and again, how many times I told myself , do not study last minute…
Do Not and the Do Not and the Do Not…
Oops! i DID IT again.. hahahahaha

My mum bring me along to the terminal, while I’m going to waiting room I was totally back looking at my mum..
Don’t really dare to stare at her.. Coz, I will afraid the clouds turn dark.. SO I JUST BYE BYE…

My aunt pick me as usual, but she was late for this time, every time she will waiting for me rather I waiting for her.. Hmm,, hahaha
My aunt treat me as usual, no different..
But things change, i mean
the way she treat me it seems so usual until I never really notice what she did for me..
First, I found myself is useless, irresponsible, no one love me or to say I am unworthy to be loved..
My aunt was like guiding me to study, ask me to help my the other aunt to look over her shop..
You know what..
My aunt even use childish trick to ask me to study…
Is just like, if you study I make you a juice!!
i mean, who will really lure into this kind trap… HUH!!!
Hahaha, but I did….!! How lousy I am…

Once, my aunt suddenly start about our family topic..
She stop this topic when she discover my eyes are wetting.
The time I was shower,
I cry hard and I found what is the thing I really care about before I leave Kuching at the time i was crying..
T.T

Conclusion :
I was touch because at least there is someone love me, when I am down..
Not by words, not by force but love with actions..
I did not really tell me aunt anything how I feel this journey but
Thanks for God give me a wonderful aunt.

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will be continue..

If I remember la..

First time! MY first time! Thank God for giving me this chance to serve Him at stage!
I never go for serve the LORD in Sunday service, and today is the chance..
U know?!
Actually i prayed for serving the Lord in stage for almost two years.
And every once I pray I really hope that I have the chance, thought i waited for more than two years time.
This two years time really teached me a lot about God’s words, although in my spiritual life I was always upside down but God really help me in every problem and in every condition. Most of the time I am the one who left God or to say let God be apart from my life, yet i didn’t know He is the one who I really need.

Hmm,

Sometimes, I was really blur and really don’t understand what is God’s plan,
Coz will face into many condition which I do not prayed for, asked for and please for but in the end why turn out something that really hurt me or bad condition?
This morning, I was reminded of pregnancy.
It seems like true believer i mean women la ha,
have the problem of pregnant de?
And this morning when i was at stage, I was like..
hmm, hopefully i won’t get pregnant in the future coz will face many many kind of baby’s problem,
Die la, handicap la, bla bla bla, but i know la i know la..
i will get marry in the future and of course la, will bear a child la, abaden i pray for my baby will in the good condition and will not face this ojipala problem… Is so scary for me!
Hahahahaha…
Anyway, is still God plan.. Hmm.. I don’t dare to complain.

A testimonial of serving the Lord at Stage:: (more…)

2009年了..
在没有意识中,又这样过了一年
在2008年,发生了很多事情..
很多很多,用言语也无法述说的心情和情节..
我在2008年,发生的往事..
-没有好好的用功读书
-爸和妈离婚
-我的灵命也起起落落
-没有好好跟随神的道路走
-心理对家人的感触
-妈妈的伤口,曾经被虐待的伤痕
-我没有一个很好的方法来处理自己的复杂心情
其实在2008年,真的有很多不愉快的事情发生..
但是我很感谢的是, 神没有忘记我…
祂常常都在帮助我, 只是很多事情我自己感觉不到..
请大家多多为我祷告哦..!
让我有不一样的一年..
虽然今年在经济上会有很严重的往下坡..
可是还是要相信神的恩典..
因为祂必赐福给我们,只要我们是走在祂的道路上..
AMEN?!
大家要多多为我祷告哦..
让我今年会跟往年不一样..
因为我要站起来..
我要预备神要给我的福份..
当然, 我也会多多努力学习..
在祷告方面,在敬拜方面, 在顺服方面…
还有很多很多都是我还必须学习的…
让我今年是丰收年, 在我属灵方面..
为我多多祷告哦..
谢谢大家..